So, I finally found my beautiful Shiny Shinx a few days ago. Her name is Shukhia, and she's already evolved into a Luxio, or the "awkward-teenage-pokemon" phase. She'll be a gorgeous Luxray. :) And in the mean time, my hunt for the Shiny Swablu has commenced. XD

Alsoalsoalso, I am itching to write that gigantic Pokefic that I had that idea for a million years ago earlier in the year, and I also figured out how to get around one of the problems Blake brought up with it - the fact that Tallie uses Manaphy in battles, and isn't supposed to find out what it is until later in the story. I'm reckoning, for most trainers, they wouldn't know what a Manaphy was, just like Tallie, but for experts and Gym Leaders, who might/would know, I'm thinking that maybe I could have Professor Rowan contact them and ask them to keep the secret from Tallie if they ever happen to come across her. It definitely still needs some tweaking, but I'm glad I've got at least one idea.

And I really just want to write, but I don't know what to do about the edits that Blake made, because I don't know what to do with them, in all honesty. .-. If he'd told me to make the changes myself, I might have been able to do it myself, albeit probably not to the standard that Blake did, but with all the additions in there, I'm not sure what to do, and I don't want to disregard it.

ANYWAY. Finished my second play through of Ranger 2 this morning afternoon. Got a lot of hideously unoriginal plotbunnies to write about Keith and Kate. Seriously cute pairing is seriously cute. I like it better than Solana and Lunick, and they were pretty damn cute.

I like Pokemon Ranger pairings. Can you tell?

Anyway. I'm off.

Today I took the schoolbooks I can sell in to school for the Silver Star Secondhand Booksale. Dad gave me $20 before he dropped me off, and told me I should go look for some CDs in the city. So I did that. I bought Dying Is Your Latest Fashion by Escape the Fate, and I wandered around a bookstore, and took a list of books that looked interesting (Christmas is coming up, you know. Mum will need a list sometime.). Then I bought two new t-shirts at JayJays, and then I went to Borders to read one of the books I saw at the other bookshop, where I got the idea reading the books was not something they approved of.

The book I was reading, was called Thirteen Reasons Why. It is a double narrative story, following Clay Jensen listening to the audio tapes that Hannah Baker, his crush, made the night that she committed suicide. In those tapes, she tells her reasons why.

It follows a long, snowballing chain of events, where she tells of all the people who have wronged her in what ways, big or small, and what the those things did to her that made her do what she did. Indeed, a lot of things were very small, but they snowballed into something that Hannah couldn't control.

Reading the book, listening to Hannah's narrative, even knowing it was all said on the same day, was like watching someone slowly, but surely, lose their will to live, and die. I won't compare it to actually watching someone die, but it was like watching someone's spirit vanish. The whole time, you knew how it would end, and yet, you couldn't help but keep going; you wanted something good to happen to Hannah. You wanted someone to help her. You wanted it to end differently, you wanted someone to save Hannah.

But you know no one will, because you know at the start of the novel, at the very beginning, that she's been dead for two weeks now.

It talks about how you never really know what's going on in someone's head and life, or how the the things you do will affect them. And it really meant a lot to me, to know there was a book out there talking about things like this, showing how people's little jokes or little actions can damage someone so far beyond any repair by the time they find someone willing to change their lives for the better.

And then, I started thinking; if I were to do this, what would be my 'thirteen reasons why'? I know I probably wouldn't reach 13. That's not the point. The point was identifying everything and everyone that caused me to want something like this. Of course, it starts four years ago, and from there it moves, but, I probably won't say anything of it to anyone, ever. Not even here. I know a few names that pop up, but I won't give them.

Anyway. READ IT. It's really an amazing, heartfelt book.

I'm totally behind.

But, the way I'm going, I should be able to at least hit 50k before or on November 30.

I have 38,918 at the moment, and plan to bullshit my way to 40k before I go to bed tonight.

I bought myself a new song to repeat very, very repetitiously until I hit 40k. And then I will go watch Doctor Who and die before getting up tomorrow and making sure I write at least 2000 words tomorrow, because I have to do at least that every day to hit 50k by Nov 30.

Shoot me?

Because I want to find a Shiny Shinx, get Carn to Lv. 100 (HE'S SO CLOSE, LV. 98) and hatch Celebi. <3

I didn't get Mew.

So so so so so upsetting. And all these people with Mew are clicking me, I'm like, "BASTARDS, STOP RUBBING IT IN. ;_;"

I knew yesterday was gonna fail in terms of GPX after I missed that Shaymin egg. :(

But, here's my current party, with Shiny Carn (LV 88, ONLY 12 LEVELS TO LV 100, AND THEN I CAN PUT SOMETHING ELSE OUT. OMFG I AM SICK OF THE CARNIVINE), a second Slowpoke (for Slowbro) and three Shiny Shinx attempts. The three latest in my quest, with 68 already hatched. Le sigh.



Here's hoping I get Celebi tomorrow. *crosses fingers*

I wrote about 4,300 words.

Word count Nov. 2 = 8,420

Feeling good. Wish Cade could meet Arianwen already.

...Hope you don't expect more than this. XDD

(Exams on Thursday. *flail* NaNo is my procrastination tool)

Like, desperately?

3,877/50,000

Will try to hit 4,000 before I lose internet.

Yes. We have started November. Posts will be substance-less and infrequent.

Anyone doing NaNo, you can add me HERE:

http://www.nanowrimo.org/eng/user/260566

I probably won't finish (exams, don'tcha know?), but, hey, the more the merrier. Slash I totally like stalking your progress. /shot

I need new NaNo avvies. XD;

...Stupid JB Hifi was closed today. -_- I'll have to go out tomorrow to see if they have it. I AM LIKE, OBSESSED WITH BREAK. /shot

...The TDG fangirl has risen her head. >.>

So... yesterday was final day... today was dress up day/concert/valedictory lunch.

And I'm feeling a little sad. I don't even know why, really, because honestly, high school's been a kind of sad and lonely experience for me. But, I'm still sad that it's over. I'm wearing my Year 12 Rugby Jumper, and just...

Maybe it's because I know next time I go into the school, I'll be so detached from it all. Maybe it's cos I know that all there's left is exams, and it's kind of scary. Maybe it's just that the end of something is always something that we feel a little sad about. I'm not sure.

Anyway. Tomorrow I'll be getting back to studying. I should start planning my NaNo characters (or at least trying to make them different to the Titans. .-. Especially my girl, cos the whole conflict about her was that she was scared of her immense power... and dammit, Starfire just has the most awesome powers. I suppose I can change eye colours and hair colours and personalities and stuff...) because I won't have a lot of time to do a lot once November hits (Exams from 5th to 12th), and then... oh... horrible thought... I have to hand my computer back to the school...

Fuuuuuuck my life. *sigh*

Anyway. I'mma... do something else.

Latios, this is for you. XP

( Pigtails are too cute. )
Yep. XP

To post tomorrow (morning or night) about shit that's happened over the last few days.

kthnx.

So.

I'm kind of a terribly shameful person.

I've already memorised Torch Song. >.>;;;;;;;;;;

BUT. Oh well.

My feet feel like ice, and it's kind of sucky.

Brownlows are tonight. I don't keep a particularly close eye on the footy, but it's always interesting to see if I actually know who the guy who gets the Brownlow is. :P

Had a mass DF Aus chat on MSN last night. Epic fun. J2 (or is she J1? I can never remember. A lot of us just call her God. ;D) has a very vibrant and outgoing personality, and I can't wait to meet some of them at Soundwave. I need to get my ticket for that, actually. >.>

But yeah, was much fun. We bonded over the horrors of Year 12, which band members we'd do (God kept saying they're all olding), and other random stuff like that. Was an awesome chat. :) Can't wait to repeat. I need to go on the OMB more, I think. >.> Mind you, I keep getting told to go to the NOMB, and I'm all like, "AS IF I CAN BE FUCKED." >.< I don't go on the OMB often enough in the first place...

Anyway. Going to the Melbourne Show on Thursday for a friend's birthday. Am annoyed. That's $50 that I could be saving towards Soundwave or something.

BUT FRIDAY CANNOT COME FAST ENOUGH, OMG.

I...

I...

...

My brain has been destroyed by the awesome.

fullCrashLovesongsonYouTubebrokedmybrain

...Fuuuuuck my life. But seriously. TOO MUCH SCHOOL WORK. D: I've done six hours of study yesterday and today, and I'm already intensely over it. >.< 

Also, no foooood, and I'm hungry and frustrated (in several ways) and fuuuuuuuuuuck can I just die now?

On the plus side, it was a nice day today.

1. There are 30 questions.
2. Next to each number, write only the name of the LJ user who fits.
3. Answer one question with one name.
4. Don't tell the questions to anyone who isn't doing the meme.

Comment if you want it and I'll send it to you, but remember, you must also participate in the meme! So only bother asking if you're going to participate!

1. natz_da_cat
2. queenfaithie and lunagrrl180
3. blakewilson
4. ceri_adair
5. setsurenka
6. setsurenka
7. empyrealfantasy
8. lunagrrl180 
9. natz_da_cat !
10. mini_ficwriter
11.
12. devilwearsjeans
13. queen_dimi
14. kyota_chan
15. ...jeffaplus ?
16. gracewillow
17. ithexamimi
18. queen_dimi  AND queenfaithie
19. wendwriter
20. systematic_liar
21. ?
22. ?
23. Uhm. devilwearsjeans , I suppose?
24. queen_dimi
25. ...Shit. Like, all my good FF.net friends? XD
26. ...^same as above. XD
27. ceri_adair and natz_da_cat
28. bunny_sobriquet. XD
29. ...Well shit. Uhm. Same as 25. XD
30. ?

FUCK YES, I'VE FINISHED ALL MY YEAR 12 COURSEWORK.

Today has been pretty fucking epic. Period 1 I had Chem, and we finished the theory for our last set of notes. We still have a prac/demonstration thing next term, but that doesn't matter because THE THEORY WORK IS DONE. :D

Period 2 was the Psycholgy SAC. More than half of the marks were in the multiple choice, but I reckon I got an A or an A+ for this SAC, which makes me happy. :)

And now I'm sitting here in PE, where we're reviewing yesterday's SAC, and I'm pretty happy with my results. 87.1%

I GOT ZAPDOS (MAY HE THUNDER FOREVER) IN THE CURRENT GPX EVENT. :D :D :D

...I'm supposed to find out about about the coaching job this afternoon/evening. *bites lip* I've been distracted a lot of the day, but I'm starting to be scared again. I'm almost positive I'm going to get rejected, but there's still a part of me clinging to the hope that maybe, just maybe, I will get hired on.

GAH, DNW TO BE TUTORED TONIGHT. ;_; It's supposed to be an amazing afternoon of freedom. *sigh* And it was a really nice day today, and I want to go for a run.

...anyway. I need to plan out my holidays for studying. *sighs and rubs face* I have to study like my life is about to end over the next two months. Am not looking forward to it.

You know, I'm going to be an Old Collegian in less than five weeks.

...Shiiiiiiiiiit. ._.

THREE DAYS, FUCK, GET ME THE HELL OUT OF THIS SCHOOL NAO PLZKTHNX.

...But seriously.

I have two SACs left for this term - PE on Thursday, and Psych on Friday. I have my interview for the coaching position on Thursday morning as well. I will have a SAC for Chem next term, and it will be the very last one ever, and all I've got from here on in is exam prep.

...Fuck I'm scared that I'm going to screw up.

Not even in the "Hahaha, I'm going to fail" way that maybe half of the 300 girls in my year claim, but the, "Oh my fucking god, I am going to fail" way where I AM NOT KIDDING.

I can't afford not to pass this year. I can't do Year 12 again, I can't. I swear to whatever is out there that I will fucking kill myself before I repeat Year 12. I can't do this year again.

...now I'm being silly. I'll do average at least - even if I only get in the 70s for my ENTER score, I have universities that will accept that kind of score, though I should do better in Psych, so, I should get at least a low 80, and that will get me into Applied Psych at RMIT, and I really do want that course, so...

But hell, I'm just so close to the end of high school. I can almost taste the freedom. *sighs* Right after exams, I'll be looking for a job to earn some money; Goddess willing, I'll be able to get something, and I'll work and train over the summer, and try and keep myself from stressing over the ENTER score and courses. And of course, earning money. Soundwave tickets aren't going to be cheap, especially cos I missed out on Early Bird tickets and will have to try and get General Admission, and they're more expensive. But dammit, I will not miss AFI at Soundwave. I refuse. I swear they should be headlining Soundwave, but, they have Jane's Addiction, MCR and Faith No More headlining. Honestly, Jane's Addiction and Faith No More only just recently got back together after breaking up in like, the 90s. WHY ARE THEY HEADLINING? I don't understand. AFI IS RELEASING CRASH LOVE IN AUSTRALIA IN 17 DAYS, AND IT IS GOING TO BE AMAZING.

...I can't wait until AFI tour Crash Love in Australia. And they will, I have no doubt about that.

Anyway. For the moment, I'm stuck in the stormy early spring weather with a lot of studying to do.

...YOU KNOW YOU MISSED IT. >.>

GPX+




I'm not missing many more eggs now. About 17, not including Legends and Ditto. I'm raising Iggly to full happiness and evolution, and my eggs are Pinsir, Heracross, Relicanth and Anorith, respectively.

I have 280 of the 493 Pokemon. It was a bit of a shock to know I was over half way. XD

I'm almost half way to the Amulet Coin too. ^_^

DRAGON CAVE



These are my hatchies that'll be dragons any time now. The Sunset is a girl, the Pygmy is a boy (dammit), and the... green one is a girl. ^_^



This is my current lot of hatchies. I need my old hatchies to grow up before I can get new eggs though, and the Purple Strange Markings Egg needs to freaking hatch. -.-